I've been told that I might have gone into more detail than needed. I wanted to demonstrate at least in real life, I've been able to have some measure of success, and also at times perform pretty well at a difficult job, under some extreme pressure. I've had experience trading in the market, I "did my homework" and yet, that day came. I like the way you put it "your openness and willing to help others is refreshingly normal here at BBT". So true.
Thanks for letting me know that you found this helpful. If that bigger than expected loss ever comes around, I hope this at least gets some consideration as you stop and try to figure out what happens next.