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10-8-19 Woke at 0740 with 4.5 hours sleep, feel pretty good...... SSS and a coffee...... PAT: Share size in early market....... Hot Buttons...... Notes: on my PB#3 setups take a moment to analyze the trade before entry..... Took a few trades in SIM of SIM in pre 5min and 5min ORBs... took way too much share size, (dont even know what I was thinking) felt completely out of control maybe due to knowing this is not what I would trade in Live and taking stupid risk.... I do need to trade these as if I was in a Live account even when I am in SIM otherwise if I get a setup to start working I fear I will continue to trade too much.... I think I will just stop trading the first 5min again as I did in the past and only trade A or better setups from now on..... Ill post the stupid P&L here just so I will remember this tomorrow.... These were all in the first 15min.... -1153.66 this would be -23+ Rs LOL first and last time for this..... I had to leave for a bit dealing with another business and unreasonable customers....... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I will make this my break of SIM and Live account for my information.... but as I have been doing I will still use my P&L for all trades since I do not have a way to separate them yet....... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- BRX Finally found a trade today that makes sense to me.... got this from the Turbo Breakup scanner..... cross referenced it to News..... Brixmor Property Group's Commitment To ESG Excellence Recognized By Multiple Organizations..... This along with a new 52 week Hi I felt this is a stock in play.... RVOL is also 2.36 PB#3 (A+ setup) could have got a better entry a couple minutes earlier but one can never tell and I feel like this was a safe entry waiting on confirmation.... This had all the right ingreidents, 2min trending the 9ema, no new 5 - 15 - or 30min low, an ABCD on the 2min.... My first entry was a full size for my stop and my RR was 2.5/1..... the addition about 15min later was only a few shares as my Buying power was all used up..... I took a few 25% partials and a couple 10%.... my add on was only 25 (which is what the last partial was) shares as it seems every time I do add on to a trend it does a reversal soon after..... The time is 1314 and am holding onto the 253 shares I have left. I did hold onto it on the bounce of the 20ema as the new 5min lows never breached the 9ema.... I will be looking at the 5min chart for the 9ema and the 15 and 30min for new lows from this point on.... at 1318. 1326, 1330 I took 10% each time.... I am also noticing that the 5min Volume has been more on the Bull Candles...... I have now switched my charts to only have 5, 10, 15, 30, 60 and Day Charts and took off the 2min to keep myself from hitting the Sell Position Button too early.... 1345 and 1350 candles were tough to hold onto, when I look back on the 2min I probably would have exited but I believe by taking the 2min off my charts it will make me a better trader.... My Reason2Exit was the break of the 9ema on the 5min and down to the 20ema, along with the Powell speach.... Cons: Was just stupid in SIM of SIM..... Pros: I did wait till I found an A+ setup before taking a trade Favorite Trade: BRX Notes: Gotta Go no time before work... R = 50.00: Blow up in Sim / +126.38 on my only true setup

07Oct19. Green Day. +3.5r. Today was a better trading day for me. Not because of the daily profit, but because of how I managed the trades. I also listened to a calming music 10min before the open till 30min after the open. I think it helped me a bit, I am planning to do this for few more days and see if and how it helps in the long run. Watchlist: $NVDA, $BABA, $QGEN, $AMBA. $NVDA and $AMBA were in my main screens. Trade1: $NVDA. I was interested in $NVDA yesterday, after it formed the Shooting star daily. Today SPY and $NVDA both gapped down. $NVDA sold into the open, I waited for the 2nd min candle pullback and went short. $NVDA had poor spread, so my entry wasn't ideal. I put 3:1 range order. I wanted to take a small partial at 2.5r, but by mistake added to my short. Got out of the addnl position immediately. Final partial at daily level of 177.29 (20MA daily). Entry was 179.85 with a stop of 75c. Actually I wanted to move my 3r partial even further to 4r, but before I did that, price dumped and filled me. This is one of my Best trades, because I planned this from yesterday, took it at the open today when the setup appeared and managed the trade well. Trade 2: $QGEN. QGEN gapped down due to bad earnings news and CEO leaving. It was down 20% on daily. At the open, stock was strong due to profit taking may be. I entered after the price broke thru the support levels and the new 5min candle broke the previous candle body (hive candle), Stop was above the wick. Got out at 2r and 3r. Final partial got out after it was clear double bottom on the 5min. Good: Today my objective was to let my winning trade go, I did that. Usually my entries and Stops are good. I was tempted to add to my $NVDA position at the 2nd VWAP pullback, but I resisted it. Same in $QGEN too, after the doji hammer on 1min at 9.40AM, wanted to add, but didn't. May be for another day. Improvement: on $NVDA, I had the key level as 181. I was going to short it below this level, just before open stock dumped below this level, At the open I could have shorted it earlier, close to this level. That would have given me 1) best RR 2)more no of shares.

Tuesday 10/08/2019 I had a well-being score of 6.5/10 this morning. Took 2 live trades this morning was with AAPL and BABA. I like my trading today. I really like the daily charts on both AAPL and BABA. Either could break high (AAPL) or low (BABA) or bounce from the resistance/support. Thus I had no bias in the direction of either stock. The volume arrived quickly on AAPL and about 20 seconds after the open a nice hammer was formed. I went long with PDC as a target and a reasonably large stop at the bottom of the candles wick. This was a R/R~3 which tends to be too high for an opening trade. I sent a 50% sell order at 1.5R and waited. The price went to 0.8R and stalled and I noticed SPY was dropping hard. I was nervous about being S/O so I sold 25% shares at 0.8R. I only had to wait 15 more seconds and the price reached my 1.5R limit order. Ten the price retraced fast. I was nervous about the price dropping faster when it broke the 226.08 daily level so I sold the rest of the shares before B/E. And as usual the price reversed to the penny of my stop and went for a big run without me. But, I still liked the trade and happy with my +1R. Much better partialing than I usually do. A few seconds after I entered the AAPL trade, BABA setup as well with a hammer, good volume and semi strong levels to help pull the price through. I went long with the 165.51 daily level as my target and VWAP as my stop. I immediately set my 1.5R limit order and the price jumped up and touched it without filling it. Then reversed quickly. By a rule I need to stop out at B/E which I did and was quite proud of myself for doing it . Yes the price reversed a few cents after and reached my 1.5R target but I am still glad I followed my plan. I had to take my eye off the BABA trade since I was going to stop out of AAPL and I thought the BABA trade was over. But since I had to move my attention quickly over I did not get a chance to cancel the BABA order. The price jumped and triggered the order, which is now a short. After my AAPL trade I noticed I still had an active BABA trade. I first thought I didn’t sell all the shares and hit the sell all button. But trade was still active. The same moment I hit sell all again I realized I am short and doubling my shares. I quickly covered. Now for the last 18 months (live and SIM) I have NEVER had a hot key mistake go in my favor. So it was a surprise I saw a +0.7R profit from the mistake. Now this is significant. I spent my life a very unlucky person. I am also a very negative person. Until recently I didn’t know they were related. Recently, I have tried to be more positive and I have noticed that once in awhile now luck is on my side. Though very cool, it is very disorienting. So I assume this hotkey mistake in my favor is a continuation of this. Again. Very cool. One note. PG&E are planning proactive power outages in my area to reduce chance of fire. I may not have power for 2 to 3 days. So if you don’t see any journal entry from me the rest of the week, you know what happen. Score cards (live trades). Does not include hotkey mistake trade. AAPL BABA 92% 93% What I did good today: The new partial profit plan is working out well What I am grateful from today? Made profit on a hotkey mistake. What do I need to improve on: Need to create a B/E stop hot key this week.

8/10/19 good day today. started with a winning trade but i broke my rules quite badly and it shook me up so i went away, came back clear headed ish and carried on. 3 trades: 2 winners (ORB, pendant) 1 loser (trend trade) Trade 1: kurt called out the big buyer on AMBA so i went to set a limit order for an entry near VWAP but messed up and accidentally got in early with a too big share size. i decided to stay in anyway until my original stop even though i went past my 1 R risk. so i shouldve stopped out but because i had confidence in the setup i stayed in until i got my 2Rs. but i was still annoyed with myself. Trade 2: DPZ had an amazing day and i wanted a piece :p waited for a rejection of the 9 EMA on the 5 which worked earlier in the day. my stop was 2 points though so was asking for quite a large move. anyway it started reversing so i got out. Trade 3: what a trade. saw a perfect pendant form over a long time, holding the support trend line perfectly. I got in on the break with high volume and it just exploded. partialled quickly for good profit. i got added when i saw the support for an ABCD but got completely out when it lost that. still a good 3R+ trade in minutes.

07Oct19. Flat day. I made a Hotkey mistake on $ROKU, so instead of +4r I closed the day just below flat. Watchlist: $PFNX, $UBER, $NVDA, $TSM and $ROKU (just before the open). Trade1: $ROKU. I added $ROKU just before the open. But choose to trade this, due to the strong catalyst (Walmart news) and also because I have traded $ROKU few times before. I didn't have time to include $ROKU in the premarket list above (I just added before journaling). I was Long Biased on $ROKU, it was strong in the premarket, but selling off just before the open. I was waiting for the pullback. Stock was consolidating near the MA levels and I waited. Once it moved above VWAP with volume, I took long (wide stop, so very few shares). I realized the doji on the 2min could be giving me the PBBE/3C setup so added to my position and moved my stop. Was happy at this stage. Now I used the hotkey to set my range order to 3:1 RR and pressed Enter. But my Montage was not reset, so it closed the position immediately. I was frustrated. Setup was still there (as can be seen from the 5min chart), I reentered the trade, now I had less shares due to wider STOP. Partialed after stock moved 1.5$ and final part got stopped out. Trade 2 :$BABA. Appears there was a news so, almost all the stocks moved up with SPY, around noon $BABA was losing. I took short below VWAP, supported by SPY. partial till 200MA on 15min. I have been trying to trade off longer timeframe in the afternoon, this is one of the trades (although helped by SPY immensely) Trade3: $TSLA. After 2PM SPY dumped, almost all the stocks dumped with it, except for $TSLA. It was still consolidating near HOD. Once the new 30min candle broke the previous candle body I took Long (60min was still bullish). Target was break of HOD. Move would have been much more, if SPY was strong. Other stocks from watchlist: $TSM was stuck in range thru out the day (as justified by the ATR). $UBER was weak, but creating an ascending triangle, will be interesting to see tomorrow. Like I noted, $PFNX already made the move premarket and was dead for most of the day, until 14.30 when it moved. $NVDA was bullish at the open ended up creating a shooting star on the daily at the close. missed $SRPT and $SPWR. Good: Didn't overtrade. Took the mid afternoon trade based on higher timeframe as planned during last week. Despite being frustrated on $ROKU hotkey mistake, still reentered only after confirming the setup and also kept my sharesize within my risk. This is an improvement. Improvement: I really need to reset my Montage everytime, after setting a Range order. If someone knows how to reset Montage using Hotkey, please let me know.

I'm not sure if it's just me, but it seems the forum font now is either lighter in color or using a thinner font, making it more difficult to read. I know there was a recent website maintenance over the weekend, not sure if this is related? Anyhow is there a way to change the font displayed in the forum by the member? Thank you.

Hello Everybody Today was not such a good day. But again, I shall learn from my mistakes ROKU Trade 1 Bought 200 shares at 108.65. Stop loss, just below the VWAP. I know with 200 shares, I got in too late as I now risked more than 2%. Again, I need to focus on my entry for better risk management. Is there a way I can buy/short at a certain amount and not just by hitting the hot key? I would have loved to get in at 108.30 max in this trade. Scaled out way too early. Will now focus on scaling out around 2R. Trade 2 Got in at 109.47. Was thinking that VWAP was going to be a resistance. Also, saw the hammer doji and took that as a sign for long. Please let me know if I am reading these signs all wrong. Stop loss below the VWAP. Close to around 108.90. Was too slow and got all out at 108.53. Almost a whole dollar!! I am debating on using hard stops but I'm worried that during a pullback, I may be stopped out prematurely. What does everyone suggest? Trade 3 Please correct if i am wrong, but I thought I saw a double bottom. And I thought I saw a "falling devil" (I have heard Andrew say it a couple times). Therefore decided to go long with a stop loss below that level at around 106.70. Now, after reviewing, my stop loss should have been much closer. I thought I was doing well as it was using the 9 EMA as a resistance. Again, I was too slow to react and was all out, way too late at 106.51. I also traded AAPL but that also ate me up Trade 1 I saw higher highs and higher lows and decided to go long at 226.67 with a stop loss right below VWAP around 226.30 and target of previous day close. Was getting ready to go out on AAPL as it was starting to get close to my stop loss but I pressed cover instead of sell. Panicked and ended up selling all my 400 shares immediately. But then again, I would've have been stopped out regardless. Trade 2 Again, saw higher highs and highers lows and thought VWAp to be a resistance. Went long at 226.59 with stop loss at 226.4. Covered some. Was trying to cover at 227 but at that time DAS was acting up. Now, I know I asked this before, but is there a way to scale out at a certain amount, in this case 227? This time I was quicker and stopped out at 226.36. As always, I need to work on my risk management. Again, any feedback and discussion is most welcome! Thank you!

Van Tharp Institute Peak Performance Course for Traders Vol 3: How to Control Losing Attitudes Chapter 3 Finally finished this monster chapter. Huge exercises. The course said it will take up to several weeks to finish the chapter. It left me a little unsatisfied because the whole chapter is really taking tests and created huge lists, but the analysis will come later. So I am not sure why I did all this work yet. The last part of this chapter that needed to be completed was to combine and prioritize the two previous value lists into a 200 long list. Then there were two tests, which will be evaluated later, so I won’t mention them yet. Finally another list of what trading means to you which will also be analyzed later. So here is the combined value list. The essential to have and what you must avoid in one list. It is interesting the list gets very “block” like the bottom half. As a whole category of values will be less important than another. Value How do you know when you have…? How do you know when you DON'T have…? Love Feel alive Void Spending only 15 days/year with my family Little to no bond My kids will spontaneously hold my hand Every night I regret not spending more time with my kids that day Go to sleep with regret Fall asleep quickly Spending time with my family Feel the bond You feel the bond with them slipping Watch my kids grow Catch the milestones Miss the milestones Happiness Look forward to the day Dread the day Make your child laugh everyday Best sound in the world I can tell there was something missing that day I will finally have time, when my children are too old to care They prefer spending time with their friends They go out of their way to spend time with you Realize it is too late to build the bond you wanted with your children You try to bond with them but there is no foundation The bond builds Having to say no when they ask for you to spend time with them Feel the guilt They still ask, knowing there is a possibility you will say yes Trust Run to me when they are upset Avoid me Vacations Immediate increase in bond Burn out Missing milestones You see the milestones only on video You are the one recording it They prefer playing video games than spending time with you You only see your kids behind an I-Pad or computer screen They stop playing computer games to say hello to you when you come home You lose touch of what their favorite things are They surprise you when you think you are buying something they like You know what they would like Reading to kids They look forward to it If you haven't read to them in awhile its awkward Traveling The kids talk about for months afterwards They will ask for it everyday Help kids with homework They are less stressed about school work They are stressed since they feel like they are on their own They suddenly look taller Self explanatory You know what roller coasters they can ride on They suddenly stop calling you daddy You become dad There is still a loving charm in their voice when they call you daddy Safety for other drivers Stay alert while driving Risk of falling asleep while driving Safety for my passengers Stay alert while driving Risk of falling asleep while driving Unsafe to drive Fall a sleep at the wheel at least once a week Chance of falling a sleep while driving never an issue No energy Very difficult to complete any task Even have strength to exercise Safety for myself Stay alert while driving Risk of falling asleep while driving No focus Hours go by and you didn't accomplish anything Feel like you accomplished a lot by the end of the day Dizzy spells Have to grab on to things especially after standing up I can safely help tie my kids shoes Catch colds easily If anyone in my family has a cold I have it a couple of days later I can safely take care of my sick family member without much concern Procrastinate Difficulty starting the task Completing my to do list Always irritable Family keeps their distance Able stay clear and calm Way too much caffeine 4 double expressos, to keep going, is common < 3 standard coffee/teas a day Memory strength Surprise people with my memory Forgot why I walked into that room Work effectively Stay ahead of the game Seems like there are not enough hours in the day Keep up with the kids They tire first I tire first Don't fall asleep while standing - I hate that I don't dose off during the day Fall asleep anywhere Prevent dizzy spells No dizzy spells Almost faint during the day Strength to exercise more Exercise more than 3 times a week Unable to exercise It would be nice to yawn again. You body turns that off during long extreme periods of sleep deprivation. I haven't yawned in 10 years Yawn like a regular person Forgot what it was like to yawn Acid reflux from too much coffee Need tums or food to reduce reflux, though I am not hungry Not a concern Fall asleep while standing You never know when or where you may dose off Not worried about falling a sleep during a meeting Dread each day Don't want to get out of bed Spring out of bed in the morning Unable to focus Only think about what worries you You can focus on the task at hand Keeps you up at night Wide awake at 3am even though your exhausted Fall asleep immediately provide for family They go without wanting Cutting expenses Sustenance Pay the bills Loss of basic necessities Better secondary education for my kids Kids happy with their school Not happy, poor scores compared to national level Simple issues now look big Always worried about something Take life as it comes Want to ignore difficult tasks/issues Everything seems insurmountable Able to approach tasks Inability to trade due to nerves Take poor setups. Don't let winners run. Patiently wait for setups Always feel on guard Can not relax Feel safe Heart pounds Heart pounds to a point you are scared of your health Breathing exercises is enough to clam yourself down Different stresses are cumulative Things add up during the day until a limit is reach, where you just shut down Able to keep the stresses separate and in check Hear turns gray Its amazing, during stressful times, how fast your hair turns gray Gray with age Intrigue Enjoy learning about the financials Not even knowing the Nasdaq current level Need Have the materials to function Don't have the basics, effects work Financial freedom Able to pursue more interesting work Work for a paycheck self-worth Feel good about yourself Feel the stress of not providing as much as you should College fund Staying with the needed savings plan Worried how we will pay for it. Limiting my kids choices Success Created more than enough income Not even following the right path to succeed Fascination with markets Eager to trade in the morning Dread trading Nothing to wake up for Not easy to get before dawn for work Spring out of bed in the morning Difficult to find a meaning in life You look but you can't find one You know your role in this life Not a good role model for kids Scares me they might stop dreaming of the future They tell me often what they want to do with their lives Difficult to plan the rest of your life You don't see the light at the end of the tunnel You know your plan No motivation All tasks become difficult Able to get yourself going No meaning You question why you do anything You know why you do everything The days have no distinction All days become a blur Everyday has a distinct meaning and memory Forget things easier When things have little meaning they are forgotten faster More meaning more remembrance Difficult to be happy happy moments are brought down, because you ask why for everything You can live in the moment No path, no direction, meander Difficult to make decisions when you have no directions Decisions become easier Panic that you will never find another job, at least at that level You feel you and your knowledge is too old You get calls from head-hunters very few months Feel worthless All your other accomplishments no longer seem significant You know and can list your accomplishments You start thinking about just getting a paycheck instead of a career You don't care about accomplishments anymore You get your projects done Feel regret that you did something wrong to get laid off, even though thousands did with you Can actually list reasons why, even though they are likely not a factor No regrets, you move on with the opportunities awaiting Question you career path Wonder why you spent all those years in grad school and this job You know it is a temporary directional change Question the worth of your education You could have been in the same situation without working so hold in school You never forget the positive changes education has done to you Lack of respect Feel like a loser You always respect yourself Avoid conversations with people you haven't seen of awhile You plan your day around avoiding people Actively approach people Life goes on hold Mental block to plan any future event You don't defer your plans Even when you have steady employment, once laid off you always think you can be again. Never think you have job security Create a plan B and always have it in your pocket Always tired By noon you are just planning when you can get to sleep Never slow down during the day No stress relief Stress builds Working out reduces stress efficiently Poor focus The day seems to pass by without getting much done Getting stuff done Can not keep up with my kids You start to watch them and not participate You run them into the ground!! Chronic pains arise Seems every day a new pain A pain once in awhile but its easily walked off Unable to day trade You lack it all the focus, the stress, the discipline and the patience. Boy does it help. Feel old I always feel 10 years older when I am not fit I don't think about my age much Get injured easier I just walk down the stairs and by the last step something hurts Go running, hiking, or lift and it is not a concern Lack of a hobby there is a void in your life without a hobby It great that exercise can double as a hobby Headaches They always start about two weeks without a good workout I can go years without a headache when I am fit Livelihood Job more than a paycheck Just a paycheck Life Goals "Never work a day in your life" Job inspires no goals Challenging Creates interest to learn and adapt Robotic Fulfilling Job fills at least one goal Job does not fulfill any goal Responsibility People trust that you will complete the task Checks needed for you Role model for my children You inspire them to do something they love A job is just money Team player No one has to fight for credit Free for all Make use of education PhD = Doctor of Philosophy PhD = Pizza Hut Delivery Part of something big More like a quest Just see the day to day grind Pride Proud to say what you do Refer to yourself generically as an "engineer" Feeling needed People depend on you every day Your not missed Trusted Answers/tasks are accepted without question Always questioning you Valued Fell irreplaceable Easily replaced Missed They feel glad when you returned They had not noticed you were gone for a few days Respected Your opinion matters Your thoughts are not worth anything Self Esteem You simply feel good about yourself You feel like a disappointment Achievement Something recent that you are proud of If you have to go back far in time to your last achievement Make a contribution Feel that others benefit from your help Doesn't matter if you were there or not Knowledgeable They seek out to answer questions Your opinion does not matter Helpful They expect that you will offer help and are grateful Feeling needed People depend on you every day Your not missed Trusted Answers/tasks are accepted without question Always questioning you Valued Fell irreplaceable Easily replaced Missed They feel glad when you returned They had not noticed you were gone for a few days Respected Your opinion matters Your thoughts are not worth anything Self Esteem You simply feel good about yourself You feel like a disappointment Achievement Something recent that you are proud of If you have to go back far in time to your last achievement Make a contribution Feel that others benefit from your help Doesn't matter if you were there or not Knowledgeable They seek out to answer questions Your opinion does not matter Helpful They expect that you will offer help and are grateful Creative Positive responses for your "new" ideas Rehashing old ideas Continually improve The world opens to you Same old, same old Read Every day (audio books) <4 a week feels like I am no longer reading Learn new Learn something new everyday Can't remember the last thing learned review old Almost always recall useful info Always unable to find useful info not recently learned Increase understanding Instinctively always want to know the "why" Learn enough to finish the project New skills If you are struggling, you are learning something new Everything is too easy Learn Day Trading Improving each month Stagnating Stay with new tech You find yourself teaching other on the new tech You see others using new tech and you have no idea how to use it Keep a good memory Surprise people with my memory Forgot why I walked into that room De-stressor Tolerance for stress is high Easily set off Hobby Working out is fun Hitting the gym is a chore Keep fit You can feel fit You can feel out of shape Improve sleep Deep sleep more than half the night Light sleeping only Improve mood High tolerance Short fuse The great Outdoors The reason I moved to California What a waste moving to California Time to myself Then like to spend the rest of the day with people Feel claustrophobic Push myself Proud of the workout Felt like I wimped out Time in the sun Good day sunshine Vampire I want to climb Mt. Whitney Ready for Whitney in 2021 Will I ever be ready for Whitney Calm Zen On the edge of a mood swing Mediation The skill is getting easier Not seeing any progress Contentment Living a worthy life Going to die with lots of regrets Quiet Hear the roosters and cows Hear only shouts Time for myself Take the short way home Take the long way home Interim between stressful events Back to norm before the next event Fires keep building on each other Music Listening to my daughter play piano The day just doesn't seem as harmonic Walks Listening to books or bonding with my son The bond with my son seems to drift Pets Unconditional love Like something is missing Sleeping child Nothing more peaceful I miss not seeing them sleeping in the mornings Work less efficient Always need to look back on what you were doing You have an outline in your head that you can easily follow You can feel it is getting worse Less work done each day Can see improvement with normal daily activities Forgetting memories of your children when they were young See an old picture and can no longer remember the event Don't need to see pictures since you can recall the event clearly Thinking you peaked some time ago and now just falling You haven't accomplished what you wanted in life and now it is too late Your making progress and there is still time You extrapolate the worsening of the memory loss and think you will be useless by 65 You can't imagine providing for your family in a few years Will be working until at least 70. NP Difficulties trying to prevent it You try the gimmicks and nothing works Just the usual healthy living and you see it improve Need to look up things I use to recall Seems like that's all I do all day is look things up I can just recall them. Very efficient Can't remember why I walked into a room I hate that, it is a constant reminder that you are losing your memory You definitely notice when you stop doing it You work with people who had a much worse memory than yours and now theirs is better Nothing hits you more when you see this You are the one in the meeting tat has the info at your finger tips Hopes of getting another degree fade I love learning. It hits you hard when you think you are no longer able Still plan to go back one day for more learning Anger You feel immature Nothing brings out the immature child in you You pause with adult like control Regret any action under the influence of anger Once I calm down I am so regretful of losing my temper It helps control my anger knowing I will regret it Don't act like yourself Its amazing who you become when you are angry Stay yourself Lose control You become unpredictable You control and determine logically what the next step is My children are learning to have a short fuse It is awful to see them copy bad behaviors I make an effort to show how to deal with emotionally stressful times Get other's angry It is contagious I rather put out the fire than spread it Makes the world look last inviting You think anything will set you off The rest of the world is unrelated to your issues It gets worse if not managed It builds until anything will set you off It is managed, forgiven and you move on You forget what even got you angry The anger lasts longer than the issue it self The anger dissipates quickly Hold grudges for a long time I can hold a grudge for the rest of my life Forgive and move on Financial Worries Difficult to plan your family's future You feel guilty planning anything Always planning and setting goals Huge stress factor You find your heart pounding and stomach growling for no reason You have other things to think about When its bad it dominates all thoughts. You can have this stress on the front of your mind all day You don't think of it Disappointment as the primary family provider It doesn't get much worse than that You feel that you are providing well for your family Money is leaving your accounts faster than it arrives You see it every month when you pay the bills There is financial stability All expenses are now under scrutiny The littlest thing now has to be a decision if to spend or not You don't sweat the little purchases Savings for college fund and retirement stop You start thinking pay check to pay check You save and invest Your children don't understand when their friends go on extravagant vacations and they don't It hurts They have enough vacations they are not bothered by them People start to think you are driving that classic car to be cool. And not because you can't afford a new one You don't correct them You buy a new car At its worse it seems like everyone you know is buying a new car or house. You seem to notice those things now It is not more common than usual Messy Life Unorganized Don't even seem to have the materials to get organized Folders, binders, calendars, cabinets, etc. are all available Finishing things at the last minute Its difficult to start when you know the first thing you need to do is find stuff The things you need to start are handy Messy house Messy hours equals messy life Clean house means clean life Postponing tasks Don't want to start working in this mess Start tasks promptly. Have a daily task lists created Not easy to find something At least 20% of the task is looking Not a factor in the task Inaccurate personal calendar Can no longer trust the calendar Can't live without the calendar Need to be reminded about appointments No calendar, no schedule I usually remind others Delaying doctor's appointments Just another thing to add to the list They are important Not Feng shui Yikes! You can feel the energy sucked away from you trying to walk through the house The house provides energy Overdue library books That goes without saying Always check what is due Then the course asked to make two lists. Firs list what trading means to you and the second list what others have told you about trading. The Meaning of Trading Hope to help my family's future May give me more financial flexibility Exciting The effort improves my psychology Learning the training skills keeps my mind sharp Forces me to learn how to better handle stress More in tune with world financial situation Discovering my weaknesses Fixing my weaknesses Investing 15-20 hours a week of my time Always wondering if I have what it takes to be profitable. What others have told you about trading It's hard It's easy Everyone has a stock they are recommending Everyone wants to know what stocks you are investing in Your going to lose all your money Only the Wall Street professionals with the resources can be profitable

Van Tharp Institute Peak Performance Course for Traders Vol 3: How to Control Losing Attitudes Chapter 3 A monster chapter. Huge exercises. I have been working on this chapter for almost a month and still not finished. I did just complete another exercise so I will post it now. The idea of this you list 10 things that you try to avoid in your life. Then you order them in priority. Then for each item on your list you list 10 things explaining what you value about that essential need. So you end up with 100 words/phrases. Then you prioritize each under each category to have a prioritized list of a 100 values. Then for each of the 100 values you answer, “when do you know you have it and when do you know you don’t.” So you end up with 300 phrases. This took quite a bit of time. Value to be avoided How do you know when you have…? How do you know when you DON'T have…? Missing my kids grow up Spending only 15 days/year with them Little to no bond My kids will spontaneously hold my hand Every night I regret not spending more time with them that day Go to sleep with regret Fall asleep quickly I will finally have time, when they are too old to care They prefer spending time with their friends They go out of their way to spend time with you Realize it is too late to build the bond you wanted with your children You try to bond with them but there is no foundation The bond builds Having to say no when they ask for you to spend time with them Feel the guilt They still ask, knowing there is a possibility you will say yes Missing milestones You see the milestones only on video You are the one recording it They prefer playing video games than spending time with you You only see your kids behind an I-Pad or computer screen They stop playing computer games to say hello to you when you come home You lose touch of what their favorite things are They surprise you when you think you are buying something they like You know what they would like They suddenly look taller Self explanatory You know what roller coasters they can ride on They suddenly stop calling you daddy You become dad There is still a loving charm in their voice when they call you daddy Sleep deprivation Unsafe to drive Fall a sleep at the wheel at least once a week Chance of falling a sleep while driving never an issue No energy Very difficult to complete any task Even have strength to exercise No focus Hours go by and you didn't accomplish anything Feel like you accomplished a lot by the end of the day Dizzy spells Have to grab on to things especially after standing up I can safely help tie my kids shoes Catch colds easily If anyone in my family has a cold I have it a couple of days later I can safely take care of my sick family member without much concern Procrastinate Difficulty starting the task Completing my to do list Always irritable Family keeps their distance Able stay clear and calm Way too much caffeine 4 double expressos, to keep going, is common < 3 standard coffee/teas a day Acid reflux from too much coffee Need tums or food to reduce reflux, though I am not hungry Not a concern Fall asleep while standing You never know when or where you may dose off Not worried about falling a sleep during a meeting Stress Dread each day Don't want to get out of bed Spring out of bed in the morning Unable to focus Only think about what worries you You can focus on the task at hand Keeps you up at night Wide awake at 3am even though your exhausted Fall asleep immediately Simple issues now look big Always worried about something Take life as it comes Want to ignore difficult tasks/issues Everything seems unsurmountable Able to approach tasks Inability to trade due to nerves Take poor setups. Don't let winners run. Patiently wait for setups Always feel on guard Can not relax Feel safe Heart pounds Heart pounds to a point you are scared of your health Breathing exercises is enough to clam yourself down Different stresses are cumulative Things add up during the day until a limit is reach, where you just shut down Able to keep the stresses separate and in check Hear turns gray Its amazing, during stressful times, how fast your hair turns gray Gray with age Void of goals Nothing to wake up for Not easy to get before dawn for work Spring out of bed in the morning Difficult to find a meaning in life You look but you can't find one You know your role in this life Not a good role model for kids Scares me they might stop dreaming of the future They tell me often what they want to do with their lives Difficult to plan the rest of your life You don't see the light at the end of the tunnel You know your plan No motivation All tasks become difficult Able to get yourself going No meaning You question why you do anything You know why you do everything The days have no distinction All days become a blur Everyday has a distinct meaning and memory Forget things easier When things have little meaning they are forgotten faster More meaning more remembrance Difficult to be happy happy moments are brought down, because you ask why for everything You can live in the moment No path, no direction, meander Difficult to make decisions when you have no directions Decisions become easier Unemployment Panic that you will never find another job, at least at that level You feel you and your knowledge is too old You get calls from head-hunters very few months Feel worthless All your other accomplishments no longer seem significant You know and can list your accomplishments You start thinking about just getting a paycheck instead of a career You don't care about accomplishments anymore You get your projects done Feel regret that you did something wrong to get laid off, even though thousands did with you Can actually list reasons why, even though they are likely not a factor No regrets, you move on with the opportunities awaiting Question you career path Wonder why you spent all those years in grad school and this job You know it is a temporary directional change Question the worth of your education You could have been in the same situation without working so hold in school You never forget the positive changes education has done to you Lack of respect Feel like a loser You always respect yourself Avoid conversations with people you haven't seen of awhile You plan your day around avoiding people Actively approach people Life goes on hold Mental block to plan any future event You don't defer your plans Even when you have steady employment, once laid off you always think you can be again. Never think you have job security Create a plan B and always have it in your pocket Unfit Always tired By noon you are just planning when you can get to sleep Never slow down during the day No stress relief Stress builds Working out reduces stress efficiently Poor focus The day seems to pass by without getting much done Getting stuff done Can not keep up with my kids You start to watch them and not participate You run them into the ground!! Chronic pains arise Seems every day a new pain A pain once in awhile but its easily walked off Unable to day trade You lack it all the focus, the stress, the discipline and the patience. Boy does it help. Feel old I always feel 10 years older when I am not fit I don't think about my age much Get injured easier I just walk down the stairs and by the last step something hurts Go running, hiking, or lift and it is not a concern Lack of a hobby there is a void in your life without a hobby It great that exercise can double as a hobby Headaches They always start about two weeks without a good workout I can go years without a headache when I am fit Loss of memory Work less efficient Always need to look back on what you were doing You have an outline in your head that you can easily follow You can feel it is getting worse Less work done each day Can see improvement with normal daily activities Forgetting memories of your children when they were young See an old picture and can no longer remember the event Don't need to see pictures since you can recall the event clearly Thinking you peaked some time ago and now just falling You haven't accomplished what you wanted in life and now it is too late Your making progress and there is still time You extrapolate the worsening of the memory loss and think you will be useless by 65 You can't imagine providing for your family in a few years Will be working until at least 70. NP Difficulties trying to prevent it You try the gimmicks and nothing works Just the usual healthy living and you see it improve Need to look up things I use to recall Seems like that's all I do all day is look things up I can just recall them. Very efficient Can't remember why I walked into a room I hate that, it is a constant reminder that you are losing your memory You definitely notice when you stop doing it You work with people who had a much worse memory than yours and now theirs is better Nothing hits you more when you see this You are the one in the meeting tat has the info at your finger tips Hopes of getting another degree fade I love learning. It hits you hard when you think you are no longer able Still plan to go back one day for more learning Anger You feel immature Nothing brings out the immature child in you You pause with adult like control Regret any action under the influence of anger Once I calm down I am so regretful of losing my temper It helps control my anger knowing I will regret it Don't act like yourself Its amazing who you become when you are angry Stay yourself Lose control You become unpredictable You control and determine logically what the next step is My children are learning to have a short fuse It is awful to see them copy bad behaviors I make an effort to show how to deal with emotionally stressful times Get other's angry It is contagious I rather put out the fire than spread it Makes the world look last inviting You think anything will set you off The rest of the world is unrelated to your issues It gets worse if not managed It builds until anything will set you off It is managed, forgiven and you move on You forget what even got you angry The anger lasts longer than the issue it self The anger dissipates quickly Hold grudges for a long time I can hold a grudge for the rest of my life Forgive and move on Financial Worries Difficult to plan your family's future You feel guilty planning anything Always planning and setting goals Huge stress factor You find your heart pounding and stomach growling for no reason You have other things to think about When its bad it dominates all thoughts. You can have this stress on the front of your mind all day You don't think of it Disappointment as the primary family provider It doesn't get much worse than that You feel that you are providing well for your family Money is leaving your accounts faster than it arrives You see it every month when you pay the bills There is financial stability All expenses are now under scrutiny The littlest thing now has to be a decision if to spend or not You don't sweat the little purchases Savings for college fund and retirement stop You start thinking pay check to pay check You save and invest Your children don't understand when their friends go on extravagate vacations and they don't It hurts They have enough vacations they are not bothered by them People start to think you are driving that classic car to be cool. And not because you can't afford a new one You don't correct them You buy a new car At its worse it seems like everyone you know is buying a new car or house. You seem to notice those things now It is not more common than usual Messy Life Unorganized Don't even seem to have the materials to get organized Folders, binders, calendars, cabinets, etc. are all available Finishing things at the last minute Its difficult to start when you know the first thing you need to do is find stuff The things you need to start are handy Messy house Messy hours equals messy life Clean house means clean life Postponing tasks Don't want to start working in this mess Start tasks promptly. Have a daily task lists created Not easy to find something At least 20% of the task is looking Not a factor in the task Inaccurate personal calendar Can no longer trust the calendar Can't live without the calendar Need to be reminded about appointments No calendar, no schedule I usually remind others Delaying doctor's appointments Just another thing to add to the list They are important Not Feng shui Yikes! You can feel the energy sucked away from you trying to walk through the house The house provides energy Overdue library books That goes without saying Always check what is due

Van Tharp Institute Peak Performance Course for Traders While I am trying to finish the monster chapter 3 in this course (looks like this chapter may take me a month) I will give an update on my goals. In a previous chapter the course asks you to sent up some short term goals with an ECD. Here are the goals and progress. 1) By end of September get a consistent 6.5 hours a sleep a night (with a min of 3.5 hours of deep sleep). Last week I obtained 6.35 hours average with 3.2 hrs of deep sleep. 2) By October 15 achieve a VO2 Max of 48. My VO2 Max was 44 at the time I set the goal and for the last week I hit a VO2 Max of 46. 3) Improve trading score card monthly average, every month to the end 2019. So far so good, but it has been a close one. 4) Spend 20 full days with family by EOY. So far I have spent 3 since the time this goal was set. But that is actually a lot for me and I am on route to accomplish the goal. 5) Finish the Van Tharp Course by before Thanksgiving holidays. I thought this was attainable until I hit one chapter that will take me a month. Now I am not so sure.